Day 6

My dad and his girlfriend are attempting to make major changes in my life.  In no particular order:

• No associating with any gay boys
• 11 - 11:30 PM curfew
• Complete transparency in who I'm talking to and what I'm doing.  Not allowed to keep who I'm talking to online or etc to myself
• No saying no to anything they propose
• No saying no to anything they propose even when it makes zero sense
• Must give complete details of who/where/what before going outside with friends
• No associating with anybody they deem inappropriate
• No disagreeing with them
• As little socializing with my own friends as possible.  Friends they introduce me to are alright.
• Facebook, Google, Youtube, and other social networking sites are blocked after 9 PM.  I usually don't get home until then.

I can't think of all of them right now.  They didn't say all of this up front, but this is the gist of what they want me to do.  At least it's only until December?

I'm bisexual.  My dad's girlfriend went on for thirty minutes today about how unclean and diseased and disgusting gays are (among other topics).  Apparently, you can get diseases by eating the same food as gay men.  My friend Rudy's calling it emotional abuse.  I personally think they're doing all of this because they truly want to help me out of my slump to become a better person and this is the best way they know how, but it's still confusing and hurtful.

There's no way I can leave this situation.  My mom won't take me back unless I leave Las Vegas on good terms, and if I leave over these issues, it won't be on good terms.  My dad might do something drastic to prove a point.

I've never been ashamed of my family before.