She told me that she's the one who suggested to my dad that he get back together with my mom for my sake, and he was somewhat receptive until he heard my mom yelling at me last Monday. She said he was "disgusted" with her behavior and it completely turned him off of the idea. She followed up with this: "But I don't think that was really your mom that day. She was probably just really upset. Your dad told me that she used to be a really quiet sweet introverted person, and people don't change that much!" She's also constantly saying things like "if I knew your mom, i bet we'd be really great friends," and "she seems like a really sweet person."
She's not socially incapable. She's "good with people," which makes it all the stranger that she says such socially unacceptable things to me.
Also, Ritu just reminded me of a list of goals I created with her for my stay here:
- Take a full load of classes
- Don't ditch any classes
- Make a friend
- Don't spend all my free time watching television
- Be hygienic
- Write a finished story
1 and 2 are out of my grasp now since classes start in a week, but I think I'm making solid headway in 3 and 4. 5 is on lockdown. I'm getting started on 6.
- AN ADDENDUM TO THE ADDENDUM -
Speaking to the same friend just now, I felt for the first time that my life could turn out alright. I've never felt like that was within my grasp before. But I am capable of changing things. My life is in my own hands (which is scary because WHY WOULD ANYBODY PUT ANYTHING IN MY HANDS), and for the first time, that seems like a positive thing.
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